I’ve always wanted to write a blog. Something that somebody would read and think to themselves, “Yes! Yes! Yes! Genius! I totally agree with this lady!” before sharing it a thousand times on Facebook. This wish has led me to wonder what it is that gives humans the desire to change the world. I mean, what’s the big deal? Some would say fame and fortune. Others would say that its having the satisfaction of knowing that they made a difference. But who says that change has to be on a world scale? And who says that the small things you’re doing right now aren’t going to change the world in the future? I can assure you that every person mentioned in our history books are people who weren’t born as “world changers.” They had to put in some serious effort, step outside their comfort zone, and remain confident in the face of nay-sayers. Not an easy thing to do. So why is it, then, that we feel acute disappointment when our world-changing plans don’t iron out as quickly or as perfectly as we hope?
That’s the question I’ve been asking myself a lot lately. And I’ve begun to wonder why it is that we humans are so hard on ourselves? Each of us has so much goodness within us. We each have our own strengths, talents, and beautiful personalities. Yet we tend to think that if we allow ourselves to see our own virtues, that we would become haughty, proud, vain, self-righteous, and all those other nasty things no one wants to be known for. So we continue on in our self-depricating manner until we don’t know which way is forward anymore.
Ironically, for most people, after a bout of these mind-numbing, self-depricating conversations, we usually find ourselves in an even darker place. And if we were to talk to God in a moment like this, I’m sure He would say, “My beautiful child, why is it that you are so hard on yourself? Do you not see who you are becoming? Your potential? Your divine worth? For you are a child of God and nothing, and nobody, can ever take that away.”
So if God, an all-powerful, perfect Being, sees us as His beautiful children – ones that are full of potential, and always worth His love – why can’t we? What big picture are we missing? Lately, I’ve begun to believe that its a lack of trust in ourselves. After all, I know that God trusts me. And I trust God. Yet somehow the thought of trusting myself because God trusts me is scary and overwhelming. Yet if a Perfect, All-Knowing Being trusts us, isn’t it a trite silly to not trust ourselves as well? It’s almost like we’re in the middle of taking a test, and, blessedly, our teacher hands us the complete answer sheet. Wouldn’t it be silly to fear that we wouldn’t get 100% on that test with the answer sheet right in front of us? Makes you think, doesn’t it.
Fun things like these are what have been on my mind lately, which is why I have decided to take up blogging once more. I feel that even if these blogs don’t change the world – or even if I don’t get a million Facebook views – it certainly is nice to have a place to put all of these jumbled thoughts. Keeps ’em more organized that way.
Anyways, I hope you have enjoyed reading this blog and are looking forward to reading more! Please feel free to leave a comment below, I would love to hear your thoughts on anything in this post.
And remember, “Life is hard. But you can do hard things!”
‘Til next time,
R. J. Carr